in this dream, I was havin’ an argument with someone I used to know a long time ago—like, I haven’t seen or talked to ‘em in over 18 years. It was this old friend of mine, back before their transition. They’re now a trans man, but in the dream, it was them from before that.
Anyway, they were makin’ fun of me, laughin’, and sayin’ I was gay. At first, I got super frustrated ‘cause I couldn’t get the words outta my mouth to say, “I’m not gay.” It was like my dream self couldn’t talk properly, and I had to focus hard to make myself say it. Finally, I managed to say, “I’m not gay,” but they just laughed in this mocking kinda way and said, “Yes, you are.”
I told ‘em again that I wasn’t, but they just laughed again, sayin’ the same thing, and then added, “I’ll be back.” That’s when I shot awake, feelin’ all panicky and anxious. It took me a good while to calm down and get back to sleep.
Dreaming of an argument with someone from your past, especially someone you haven’t seen in years, often points to unresolved feelings or conflicts that still linger in your subconscious, even if you don’t consciously dwell on them. In this dream, the focus seems to be on identity—both your own and your friend’s, especially with their transition and the mocking accusation.
Your frustration at not being able to express yourself may symbolize a sense of powerlessness or fear of not being able to communicate your truth in waking life. The accusation of being gay, even though it isn’t true for you, might suggest you’re feeling misunderstood or misrepresented in some aspect of your life. The mocking tone of the friend’s words could reflect past insecurities or fears about being judged by others.
The fact that your friend is from before their transition could indicate that you’re grappling with past dynamics or unresolved feelings related to how people saw you, and how those perceptions have evolved over time. The final words, “I’ll be back,” might suggest an unresolved issue or a situation that’s coming back to be dealt with, whether it’s from your past or from within your current life.
Waking up feeling panicked and anxious may reflect the emotional intensity of the dream and how it touched on deep-seated feelings of vulnerability or fear of judgment. It’s possible that the dream is urging you to confront old fears or insecurities and find a way to express your authentic self more freely.
